Thoughts in the moment

I have been wondering and presence-ing myself this morning, noticing how thoughts just pop up and I do something with them. I think them or dismiss, I create a story based on the thought. I argue with my own thought and although I imagine another person/image in my head, I put words in his/her mouth and have “a conversation” going.

Some thoughts are stressful and some are joyful, and somewhere in between there are moments of peace, thought free or almost thought free

I am noticing how my body reactions changes depending on the thought I think. I am getting more tense or relaxed, more active or passive. I am organizing myself depending on what I think. And sometime I am not aware of my thoughts and just notice my body reaction.

Awareness is ability to question, I think , question my own thoughts and believes, and so I do. I question and inquire, and discover myself through this process. And I feel freedom, and it is not necessarily freedom from pain (or anything else). It is just freedom where any feeling has the right to be and swims in the ocean of freedom/love.

And then I appreciate. I appreciate my life, all that is happening. I see and experience life’s support. I appreciate the opportunity to know myself deeply, and I appreciate myself for being loving and brave to journey with life as an equal.

I love.

Yelena