I am wondering and feeling into how not to attach to the result. You know how sometime the idea strikes and you just act on it without particular expectations and attachment to the result… I have had a bunch of these kind of experiences and usually I felt satisfied with the result, and at peace with it (regardless of how it turned out)
But what about “bigger things” like relationship? I keep feeling the “nagging” feeling of “I wanna …” particular outcome. What I like the least about it is that it feels painful… I don’t have any control over it anyway! and yet…. it takes intense awareness and presence to be in the moment, don’t run stories and be real. My ” inner controller” raises his head in attempts to …control, obviously.
So, I don’t have an answer at the moment how not to scary myself in to any particular outcome …I am “in the exploration” and simply giving it a voice…